When I first started this blog, it was with the intention to provide people with a source of information on bipolar and pregnancy – particularly around conception and getting pregnant in the first place as I found so little out there about the chances and risks.
As it has evolved throughout my pregnancy (where I continued to take lithium), and through my treatment and diagnosis and the arrival of my baby, I find that now it is just as much about life as a mother with mental health conditions. I blog anonymously for now (although I think anyone who knows me would guess!) and I hope to have the courage to come out and blog freely about mental health one day.
This has turned into a frank diary of events and sharing what I know with the world in the hope that some find my experiences helpful in their quest to become, and be, a mother, partner, colleague and friend whilst living with bipolar disorder.
As for me? I am edging into my late thirties, British born and living in The Netherlands and blessed with the most beautiful baby girl, super supportive husband (who is Dutch) and bonkers Jack Russell. That’s my core. I used to work as a fundraiser but am on sick leave. So I am a stay at home mum for the time being which, to be quite honest, is marvellous.
Health: I have Bipolar 1, diagnosed when I was 32 in December 2012 after mania and depression since my ten years and am currently awaiting confirmation of an additional diagnosis of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I also have Borderline Personality Disorder traits due to sexual abuse as a child. I have hypothyroidism too which was present before beginning my bipolar treatment but didn’t get picked up properly till 2013. I see a psychologist regularly for psychotherapy (restarted after stopping during pregnancy) and at the moment a psychiatrist every month.
Medication – I take 800mg lithium and also 100 micrograms of levothyroxine daily. I have Promethazine to use to help me sleep when needed and also dabbled with Quetiapine which I loathe as it leaves me so zonked, but I have those for emergency anxiety situations.
So that’s the nuts and bolts of me. Thank you very much for stopping by to have a read and post a comment if you’d like to ask a question 🙂